INSPIRATION IS KEY

A sound sleep

2011-01-21T12:28:00.002+08:00

i did it. I finally admitted it to my close friend. Feeling better now and not surprisingly since my mind's at peace, my body gave in to my fatigue and i slept early for once, well from the start of the year. My body just shut down and i woke up realising i slept with my laptop still running.

I think i really gained back my laughter

I don't know what i did to deserve a friend like you but i'm thankful to GOD for letting you into my life.

The first and the last

2011-01-20T01:15:00.005+08:00

Sometimes i think if i cry my heart out den perhaps i'll feel better with all sorts of feelings that i bottled up in me.
But I refuse to let myself do that

I'm learned the hard way since young that if i ever cry the only person that will always be there to wipe my tears away would be just me. Just me.

I've always prided myself in not letting people affect me but to think i let someone affect me this way.

Call me being egoistic or what not. But i don't think anyone deserve me worrying them. I'm the master of my own destiny. Everyone have their own problems, i should take care of my own feelings. I would very much prefer to be the one there for someone rather than have somebody be there for me.

This will be that first and the last a friend will make me feel this way

Give me time

all i need is time

Bruised Ego

2011-01-20T01:04:00.002+08:00

I used to say "Nobody can make you feel a certain way unless you let them" but i'm contradicting myself.

Things are better now but i guess the problem is

Nobody had ever made me feel this way. I hate to say this word, neglected.Never did i thought such a day would come for me. None of my close friends ever made me feel this way before. I never allowed people to let me feel this way. The case is always people telling me i neglected them. But to think that now a person whom i deemed as a close friend made me feel this way.The tables are turned. tsk Such a day finally came for you huh huhudada. Karma's a bitch.

Maybe its because i put too much importance in this friendship since its the first time i thought i found a guy friend who would befriend me just the way i am and not because i can help them in something, that they wanna be friends with me for me. But the feeling of being pushed away eventhough if the person might not feel so, i guess sighh.. all i know is that

I will/should never be weak for there are lots of people relying on me to be the one strong for them.

Perhaps until the day i get over the fact that someone did hurt me den maybe things will be back to normal. Then maybe i'll regain back my happiness. But the problem with me is that i won't even admit to myself.

But for now i just can't accept the fact that i allowed myself to be affected/appear weak

My 2 cents worth: The elusive L word that gets everybody crazy

2010-12-07T22:20:00.003+08:00

Love. What is love? At different stages of our lives, we all have different perceptions towards the word love. It is an old age question that some of us spend our whole lives wondering what it really is about?

There are two approaches to love. It's either by thinking or feeling. Some of us claim to have found eternal love based purely on their feelings. Those are the kind of people that will tell you "love conquers all" They view love as a noble thing to have, something which if you have you can overcome the hardest obstacles. The belief that love is a strong enough feeling for two people to unite despite the obstacles that can be foreseen before the unity.

Then, there's the second kind of approach to love. It is by thinking and rationality. They are the kind of people that thinks a lot, considers a lot before committing themselves to a relationship between a man and woman. Love to them is not a strong enough reason for two people to unite. One must be able to match in terms of background and ideals and ways of life. For when these conditions are not met, they know and will perceive it as a deterrence with respect to uniting with the other.

The problem with love is that at some stage of our life we have to choose a side. We can only choose one way of thinking for if one tries to be the thinker and feeler pertaining to matters of the heart would then things will get complicated. I reiterate; will.

It all boils down to a matter of perspective, some people think that taking the leap of faith, something we see everyday in movies and dramas is rational and worth it. The phrase "You'll never know until you try" comes into play here for the feelers. On the other hand thinkers will have the mindset that "If it's meant to be, it will be" They will bet on time to give them their answers.

It is not known which approach to love is better but at the end of the day, all we have are assumptions and expectations on this four letter word. A word that can either make a person feel like they're in heaven or in hell. Such a big responsibility on the poor word don't you think so?

the picture says it all

2010-12-06T11:54:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Goodbye Goodbye

2010-09-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

You were once part of my past. Not my present. I gotta remember that.

Landmines

2010-08-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

it seems like there's a landmine every step i take. Don't ever accuse me of doing things i don't do. I won't take it lying down. somehow no matter how much i wanna stop , i can't. it's like all the emotions i kept in just keep on flowing ouT.

2010-08-03T16:49:00.002+08:00

now there's no customer i'm free to blog.. so sch's starting on 23rd Aug. There's so many things i've nt done. movie. yann tiersen. spring cleaning. and to top it off.. fasting mth is nearing. procastination is a disease i say. well anyway went to marina bay sands hotel with cousins. ultra coolshit la. didn't feel as if i was in sg. lying on the top deck staring up at the sky. i felt peace. how i wish i could live there.. aww man.. hahaha oh well.. oh yahh amk hub had an fire accident today.. i rushed to work but due to the fire i had 1 hr free n easy. hahah shiokness.. okay back to work!

What a breeze

2010-08-02T03:31:00.003+08:00

i'm not sure if there's anyone reading this space but heck arh

haha

went to marina bay sands hotel today.. damn posh.. but everything's so ex.. didn't manage to explore much since i went there after work. bummer i know.. didn't manage to go tothe skypark

shucks!

time has been breezing past this month since i kept working. 3rd August is coming. sucks not being able to celebrate one's friend's birthday.

oh well.. let's hope she's free for skype!

that's it for now.. its my day off today.. YESSAR!! but still have to settle school stuff.. shucks.. no chance to just slack at home and rot. lol

2010-07-31T23:41:00.003+08:00

i FEEL OVERWORKED. DON'T FEEL LIKE EFFING GG TO WORK TMR BUT I CAN'T COS OF MY OBLIGATION. I NEED SLEEP. YES I NEED BUT I INSIST OF BLOGGING STILL. WHY YOU MAY ASK? ITS COS I READ SOMETHING THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO AFFECT ME BUT I DIDN'T. HE REALLY DOESN'T AFFECT ME ANYMORE. ITS COOL YET SUCKS AT THE SAME TIME. OK THAT'S ALL, THIS LADY HERE IS GONNA GET HER WELL DESERVED SLEEP

Focus Pocus?

2010-07-27T22:05:00.001+08:00

it happened again.. i was too focused that i just walked past a friend right until she waved a hand in front of me.

i was told that being focused is good but if there was a fire, mati liao

lol

you know the saying everything happens for a reason? if i wasn't told to knock off earlier i wouldn't have seen this hot stuff.. hahah... not that the meeting was a significant one anyway although we alighted at the same mrt station and he took 29.. whereby i could take too if i want but i see no point. So you might wanna ask where's the reason? well all friends were once strangers right? ahhah

btw i hate how tall, handsome strangers with a penchant for music and dance affects me

Its a weakness i guess

2010-07-23T23:29:00.001+08:00

i feel so useless and clueless. I just need your guidance not your hostility.

It's time

2010-07-19T13:12:00.001+08:00

i seriously need to start doing things i wanna do before school starts.

and i should stop letting others play around in my head

Come Whatever

2010-07-14T13:41:00.001+08:00

I can never know what you're thinking. Can I?

Tacopinions

2010-07-11T00:27:00.003+08:00

i was actually sleepy but not anymore cos i saw something that offends me. but i'm gonna close both eyes and ignore it. Its easier that way sometimes. Times like this ignorance is bliss.

ARG VS GER (WORLD CUP 2010)

2010-07-03T22:24:00.001+08:00

dad: help me get a drink
me: No. Don't disturb me, i'm watching the match
dad: you want me to curse Germany? I can you know
me: What logic is that?

But i still helped him get the drink eventually.

=.=

:) ):

2010-06-25T23:59:00.001+08:00

oh anyway i just got a MacbookPro! Excited can! Esp about the iMovie and alamak was my dad's bday kinda feel bad that my bro bought for me on this day.. oh well!~~ Got home to finish up You're beautiful.. and i seriously think i am in love with that character. Tae kyung

Since not many of my friends have macbooks and since jx n ad's slots are out. i need to find others about the microsoft office! to buy a set on its own is EX SIA!! even if i buy i wanna share the cost with 2 other person since it is able to admit 3 accounts.

Oh! Maybe i should try asking Eric!

I know its lame la to blog that i bought something. but hey! i've been wanting a macbook ever since i got to know of the iMovie! Woohoo! Happy sial!!

Hopefully i'll be able to make cool videos! hehehe

Oh anyway met up with ad and matus for dinner ytd! which turned out to be a chatting session at Jco filled with opinions on religion. shiok la! Since i met hong beforehand at garden slug to pass her the door plaque, asked her to come along also...

Well whenever there's hong.. topic on religion gets interesting siaa.. ahahah.. I hope hong didnt feel weird since mai wasn't there... and well since she's at vivo!! aiyooh.. and im not working... wasted! if not can kecoh2 at work with a friend!

well anyways i think the topic of religion made her comfortable bah? no? but i can feel she feels at ease hanging out with us three.. hehhe im gonna create memories for her before she leaves for aussie. 2 n a half yrs! ): although she'll be back every six mths? hahah

perhaps i should arrange for small gatherings... (: (:

gonna miss her so when she's off to Aussie ): ):

Well gonna do this once my partner in crime is even FREE to meet me.. like always busy only.. ): oh well! nvm! next time gonna force her to make herself free heheheheh

Tae Kyung love

2010-06-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

i know i decided to not blog anymore but heys! i can change my mind right? heheh

been watching 'You're beautiful' my supervisor recommended me. It is officially one of my favs. Cos of its actors (: (:

Jeremy's versatility, he can be uber cute but charming and serious at times.

Shin Woo for his manly romantic ways

and lastly my number 1; Tae Kyung

How can i not fall in love with him???

i really don't know such a person existed. He's one of my favs of koreans (: (: